Even Superheroes can get them. That's relieving. (Skip to 1:20)
The last couple of weeks have been unlike any I have experienced before. I wanted to thank everyone for hanging in there with me while I get myself back on my feet. The short story is that, I'm feeling slightly better, so I'm going to try to release a video this week. Fingers crossed while I take baby steps back to my regular life again.
The longer version is simply that I've been fighting some unknown abdomen issue for two months. But what caught me off guard was when it set me into a constant state of panic attacks. The last 16 days have been a battle for me to simply get out of bed and walk around. It's like that iron man scene (posted as a video) but imagine this happening for 16 days straight. The slightest noises, lights sounds would send my heart pounding. My brain couldn't shut off the fact that something was wrong and that it was in danger. It's like feeling like your life is in immediate danger all the time - for 16 days. I did see a doctor but the meds they gave me only made it worse so I eventually cut them.
On top of this, my stomach aches would keep me awake at night. So I was dealing with a lack of sleep, a constant "high alert" state where lights, sound and people would send me down a spiral and being unable to eat very much. Minutes felt like hours. Every day, I woke up looking forward to going back to bed - hoping that I'd wake up the next day and some of this would lift. I had been trapped in this cycle up until today. You can imagine that it's felt like a months to me.
Today is the first day that I feel a little better. I actually was hungry and I ate a couple of meals. While my alert state hasn't disappeared, it lowered. I was able to go to the store today, but it was still a bit challenging. But at least I did it. I did some light cleaning. Getting back to my old self feels like learning to walk all over again (but a bit faster in real time. In the time I experienced, it felt like months in here). While I'm still dealing with stomach issues - I'm glad to say that today was the first day that I can say that I noticed some improvement. Definitely not 100%, but no longer at 10%. Thank you for your patience while I get through this.