Mid December- reflecting on perspectives and philosophy


My perspective evolves and changes as time passes. I think when I started I felt spinning chucks was something to accomplish instead of something to do and thinking that way had alot of negativity that came with it. I was very concerned with being “good” at it which meant a lot of comparing to others and having a negatively competitive mindset, I thought everyone must think the same way and that caused alot of anxiety for me.

Constantly comparing and judging and feeling judged was difficult but over the months raw naive Ego was replaced with pride from hardwork, being in the community showed me that people or at least the ones I cared to listen to where all supportive and encouraging and I wanted to be more like them. Currently I see spinning and flowart as something that will always have new things to explore and try instead of something to complete/master.

I still care about becoming really good but now its coming from a happier place in my mind and isnt causing me as much stress. I will continue to think alot on Ego vs pride vs confidence etc etc because I’m still figuring out what it all really means to me. I know I’m still working at not being negative and want to find balance between influence, inspiration and identity.

To leave off on a positive note daily training has been paying off in awesome and unforseen ways like a few days ago I realized I can put extra rotations on alot of my digit rolls if I want too. I have found ways to describe what some of my style goals are and made really good headway on developing how I want to move.

Categories
This post belongs to...

Like it? Share with your friends!

0

What's Your Reaction?

wtf wtf
0
wtf
damn damn
0
damn
love love
0
love
lol lol
0
lol
scary scary
0
scary
cute cute
0
cute
omg omg
0
omg
Like Like
0
Like
fail fail
0
fail
win win
0
win
confused confused
0
confused
Jay

White Belt

0 Comments

Choose A Format
Story
Formatted Text with Embeds and Visuals
Video
Youtube, Vimeo or Vine Embeds
Image
Photo or GIF
Meme
Upload your own images to make custom memes
Audio
Soundcloud or Mixcloud Embeds
Trivia quiz
Series of questions with right and wrong answers that intends to check knowledge
Personality quiz
Series of questions that intends to reveal something about the personality
Poll
Voting to make decisions or determine opinions
List
The Classic Internet Listicles
Countdown
The Classic Internet Countdowns
Open List
Submit your own item and vote up for the best submission
Ranked List
Upvote or downvote to decide the best list item
Gif
GIF format